I often had that feeling with my previous T. My relationship with my partner was (still is) lacking in many ways and so I paid someone for emotional intimacy (I guess it was a way to do that without cheating - guilt free) and fell 'in love' with him in a way that could never be reciprocated. It did feel like a terrible, cruel lie sometimes. The intimacy only goes one way.

I don't really blame T1 for all of that (though I do blame him for being s**t in a lot of other ways), in fact I blame myself - the part of me that thought it was a good idea to try to use a therapist like an emotional prostitute.

I do think it's a problem with the profession (sometimes, in some cases) that I'm not quite sure how to address or come to terms with - from either end. I guess I feel similarly to you, IDIMW - I'm really not sure.