I am. But my brain isn't fully. What's the point if I cannot eat with one hand, to aim as something like becoming a surgeon? To be a physician I'd need a calm mind and excellent communication skills. Hell, I am worried whether I'd get into med school or not, despite the fact I am brilliant. I am brilliant, I know it because I have survived so much abuse yet I am still able to pass the class... especially as a science student. My memory about what I study is fairly intact as I recall while I am studying. That's considering what happened to me throughout all my life.

Isolation, abuse, injury, infection, not letting your child learn how to live life, that's going to have an awesome outcome. Yeah.