I am. But my brain isn't fully. What's the point if I cannot eat with one hand, to aim as something like becoming a surgeon? To be a physician I'd need a calm mind and excellent communication skills. Hell, I am worried whether I'd get into med school or not, despite the fact I am brilliant. I am brilliant, I know it because I have survived so much abuse yet I am still able to pass the class... especially as a science student. My memory about what I study is fairly intact as I recall while I am studying. That's considering what happened to me throughout all my life.

Isolation, abuse, injury, infection, not-letting-to-learn-your-child-how-to-live-life-that-would-be-awesome-he-is-going-to-be-the-president.