Wow! You have been through a lot and with no support. Do you have family you can call upon for support? Is there a social worker/ nurse case manager in your doctor or pediatricians office? You need to try to get a support system of some kind. Do you really want to try to make a life with someone who so devalues you? That is not a good lesson for your son to learn. Is there a women's shelter where you could go to get information. Information is power. At best you have a long road ahead of you either way, but I might take the one without the man who is showing who he truly is. Please look for support. One person can make a difference.