I'm trying to ask you to help me feel less anxious in your office.

I said that it is stupid that I am still so anxious in your office.
You said it makes sense: I have been treated poorly in the past by people in your role; you (apparently, according to you) remind me of my mother who has treated me poorly in the past; I go see you to talk about unpleasant things.

Whenever this come up, my feeling anxious around you, you bring up that I must see you are a mother. I keep denying this because, ah thank you, I've done bad attachment before and I ain't going there again.

But, I'm wondering, does some part of your psychobabble training & perspective desire me to form an attachment so that I can experience what healthy attachment is?

You know, you guys should come with instruction manuals: when T says XYZ they mean ABC...