Anger scares me. I associate anger with a loss of control, people in my life who are angry have yelled, screamed, and hit/thrown/broken things or people. People who are angry are vicious and say hurtful, cruel things.

I don't know what it feels like to be angry. I've never felt like that. I've been upset, but not angry.

I avoid anger at all costs, I always take the blame and I do everything I can to keep others from getting mad at (or near) me. When someone gets mad anyway, I panic and either get stuck there ("freeze") or run away from the situation ("flight").

My T and I recently discussed this. I seem to cope with anger (mine or others') by turning it inward on myself.