I know exactly how you feel. I havent been diagnosed with schizophrenia but Im sure I have it. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety a few years ago though, and its gotten worse since then. I started to have signs of psychosis like 2 years ago but at the time I didnt know there was anything wrong with me. I was glad when I finally realized that there was a problem though, I always had weird feeling but I was so used to feeling weird that I thought it was normal. I have never actually heard a voice or hallucinated, but I have heard noises like water dripping and could have sworn it was someone talking and spying on me. I have also seen images in the corner of my eye but when I turn to look it dissapears. I have very delusional thinking though.

I have tons of weird feelings that I have to tell myself arent real, but still I have a bad feelings about it. I thought that people could see me through the TV and see my thoughts. I get real paranoid sometimes and I cant even sleep with the lights off from the fear of aliens and things. I have thought that I am one of the only real people left alive and the rest are robots or something. When I go places everyone seems to look at me weird and talk amongst themselves and stare at me and spy on me. I always have a weird feeling that Im being watched and I always see the same cars and people looking out at me and pointing on me. When I ask my close friend why people are doing this, they always tell me noone has ever looked at me funny or talked bad about me and Im just too paranoid, so maybe it is all in my mind and noone watching me, but I cant be sure.

Im still hoping that its caused by some minor physical illness, but I have been to the doctor and they always tell me Im healthy. So Im starting to think that I made up that I had a physical problem or something and Im just messed up mentally.