Went to my sister's for dinner. I could feel the anxiety and guilt building up even before I ate anything. I managed to eat relatively okay. I did pick through the food a bit and turned down a slice of cake. This whole voice in my head thing is annoying, yet at the same time I kind of like it because it's motivation to lose weight. I keep thinking over what my therapist asked yesterday, if I believe I have an eating disorder. She said you can be any weight and still exhibit signs of disordered eating.
-sigh-
Anyway, thinking of y'all and sending good vibes.