I can't believe him.....he actually sent me an email asking me all these scared questions about where his disability check is & that it should have been deposited....it doesn't get deposited until the 25th. I told him to read my emails (which have given him direction about bills to pay & how I'm going to handle certain things). It's like he reads things into what I write & then doesn't pay any attention to them. It's just proving all the more how incapable he is of understanding anything & is showing me that he is even worse off than I thought.

The sad thing is that we got birthday & Christmas money from his parents....he assured me that the money would be used to pay for the appraiser.....then he sent his parents an email (yes....I bad....I snooped all over his email account to see what he was saying) telling them he had things he wanted to buy with the money (DVD's, Software packages) nothing about what he honestly has to spend the money on....trying to make it sound like he has money to burn.

I told him that I have emailed his parents with all the information about what has been going on with him & that he needs to accept their support (& I don't mean financial) & guidance. I am so sick of him living this lie....it just amazes me how much he is caught up in this fantacy he's living in.....I know when I was so depressed to the point of attempting suicide more times than I can even count....I was still in touch with the reality around me & wasn't living in an imaginary world like he is....maybe that was because I wasn't trying to hide my feelings like he is.....he is definitely sick & I am so happy that I am no longer living around him.....it allows me to step back & see what is actually going on.

Little would my Mother have ever imagined that her death would have saved me from the one thing she didn't want me to get out of. Thank heavens, I have my home here in KY....I would be going crazy if I were living around that anymore....I see even more why I kicked him out of here when I did....of course, if he were here when I got that IRS letter, he might not be alive today....(just kidding....but those are my feelings if nothing more).

At least with forcing everything through email....I have written words, information & a date timeline of everything that is going on.....so that everything isn't lost through the phone waves. This might be what is needed to show just how much he needs someone to handle his affairs in the future. I just don't want what I worked so hard to get & that is his 1/2 of the marriage to be thrown away & him end up homeless....I do care...but not enough to destroy myself by sticking around.

Debbie