Have any of you had friends that are in denial about you being bipolar or have used it against you?
I have had a tough time with a couple friends. One friend took everything I had ever told her and all my fears and threw them back in my face when she became angry with me. I don't see how I was to blame for that one. The short story is she had asked to throw me a baby shower and then never invited anyone. The date was only 5 days away and she wasn't returning by phone calls so I emailed he and told her that we couldn't go through with the shower, that I wasn't angry, and I was too sick and depressed to even miss a shower. She lost it, I mean really freaked out, and sent me the nastiest email I had ever gotten. She used every fear I ever had, such as paranoia about people hating me and judging me to small things that I said that irritated me.
Another friend had decided that if she ignores the problem it will go away. I have had a very tough few years, getting much better now though, and wasn't always consistent with my communications with her. She is the type to want to talk all the time and hang out. I spoke with her at least once a week and saw her at least that often, but apparently that wasn't enough. She doesn't understand the disease and won't talk about it or even acknowledge that I sometimes get really depressed or obsessed with something and can't control it.
My family isn't really that different. The won't talk about it when I need to. I understand it makes them uncomfortable. I tried giving them a book about it hoping that it would start a dialogue and it didn't. They only want to know if there is a major problem.
I feel very alone right now. I really only have one friend that gets it and I think it is because she has experienced depression. It is great to find a community that you can speak freely in where people understand
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