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<font color="green">This thread is challenging to me. I never really thought about paying for telephone calls. I suppose if I had I would never have called.
Perna's question resonated for me too, but I know I have believed that I don't have any value and therefore don't deserve support. Eventually I learned to call when my kids were in crisis and that expanded to my own crisises.
I think the first time I ever called for myself, I was stuck in a flashback loop and panicking. She happened to pick up the phone herself and talked me out of it. We have talked a lot about what the rules for calls should be, she has 'given' me 6 calls a month if I have a need for her. I am also allowed to call or email if I just need to 'let her know something' but that is part of the 6. Funny thing is I have never gone over the 6, in fact I think the most has been 3.
Part of this has been a fear of becoming and acknowledging that I am this attached to her. About the time I begin to feel comfortable with my attachment something inside says nonononono!
I am glad she lets me call her when I really need to call her. If it was different I could deny my attachment and/or shut it down and out. </font>
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dalila
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