I just noticed something that feels different....I've normally spent my life looking for that special someone that will fulfil all my needs....I would then obsess over them and mentally stalk them...I had a friendship break down over xmas and it caused me a lot of a pain....but this turned out to be the best thing that could have happened to me...I feel actually pleasently happy that the rut I was stuck in with this person is over...I didn't realise what a prison I had created by hanging on to this person...now someone else has come into my life and I noticed none of the obsessive thoughts are there...infact I was rather passive toward the person and felt something was missing...I later realised that the obsessive thoughts were missing....I wasn't planning ahead within hours of meeting this person nor did I really think anything else about what they were saying to me but what they were saying...there were no fantasys going on in my mind...it was like a meeting of 2 adults...it feels rather wierd at the moment though because I am so used to this part of me that normally clung onto someone immediately that I feel odd...I had this vision last night thinking about this and it was that suddenly I am standing outside a cave that I know I was once in, where I once felt safe but now I know I can't go back in there, and if truth be known dont want to either, and I know I now have to turn away from this cave that once meant so much to me and begin to walk into the unknown and though there are uncertainties about this, its also exciting and bit by bit the fears I really did have in the cave but refused to admit too are suddenly becoming apparent and it takes my breath away to think of all the time in the cave alone and thinking I was happy in there...does this make sense?