Hope it's OK to reply to this. I just wanted to say that I'm feeling similarly. I saw ex-T for 6 years, and now in less than a year with current T, I feel we've gone so much deeper and I'm realizing stuff that I didn't know was there before. Making lots of progress but also realizing how much further I have to go, and wondering what exactly I was doing during those 6 years with ex-T (and ex-MC). And it's also similar with current T, where he can ask something or make a comment and it cuts to the bone, either in me feeling hurt, exposed, scared, and/or having some major realization about myself. But I also feel I'm making so much more progress, like I have to get down to those emotions to move forward. So, I get it and the mixed emotions.