I know there’s always room for improvement and I will keep trying... but it’s so discouraging to receive yet more negative feedback no matter how much I work at something.

We received yet another bad internal audit. Almost everybody was named as needing improvement... except the one person who never does their job oddly enough. That doesn’t make sense to me and feels awfully demoralizing...

I’ve been staying late... coming in some Saturdays... I was sure all my stuff was looking good... Yet no, I need to do more. Just feeling really, really discouraged.

On the “positive” side... I’ve grown accustomed to negative feedback. It doesn’t upset near as much as it used to. I expect it now and I just keep making the changes that are recommended. I am noticing my own improvements and will continue to do my best.

I’ve built some resilience in all of this. But at the same time I feel a sense of hopelessness and have grown to really hate coming to work. I keep a smile on my face though and I continue to be as friendly as I can. Nobody knows how much I hate the place.