Please believe this: You are not evil. The hallucinations you are experiencing are not evil. Have you ever known anyone with an injured limb? With diabetes? With the flu? With cancer? Would you call them "evil" for their illness? Of course you wouldn't! Thus, the symptoms of mental illness you're having are just as non-evil as any other illness or disorder. Your brain is physically engaged in mis-firing. Please speak with your pdoc immediately. Reach out and get the medical help you need in order to stop the torment you are engaged in.