I feel both older & younger than I actually am. I hate looking at myself in the mirror! I don't look anything like what at least some parts of my brain try to tell me I am. And I don't appreciate the parts that do align.

I'm perhaps a somewhat better person now than I was when I was young (perhaps not that much; but anything's got to be an improvement.) So that's a good thing. I'll never go back anywhere I used to live. And I don't ever want anyone I ever knew in the past to find me. I just hope to fade away, sooner rather than later, like the Cheshire cat until there's nothing left but my grimace...