I don't know...and the thing is, I'd said it before! I don't know why it affected him so much that time. I guess...it had been the first time since his wife died, so possibly that? But still, it really messed with me that he wrote "Of course it's OK," but then after that it seemed very different. The phonecall days later was so confrontational, it was like seeing this whole other side of him. He kept breathing in this way that made it feel like he was trying to keep from totally going off on me, like he was trying to keep it together. And partway through call, he said he thought I'd wanted individual session, and I said no, just phone call (which we'd done many times before). And I'd said in email was platonic, not romantic love. But at the end when he was like, "And you nhat teed to reduce contact with me," that just destroyed me. Because so many times I'd checked in with him to make sure my contact was OK. And he claimed at first that this was because I'd wanted individual session, but that was cleared up early on in the phone call, so why then still go forward with that? Pretty sure it was, as I asked him later, because I'd said I love you. Which....