Hi--I am new to this, I don't even know if I am replying correctly and you will get this. I clicked on reply. . .! Anyway, when you care about somebody, and you know the abuse was a mental disease/disorder, how can you not feel for them? I am going through this right now. However, having a long distance relationship, (about a 4 1/2 hr drive), I only got the abuse part through messenger on Fb. Bizarre and making no sense. Did not know he was bipolar. Stress at work triggered it. I have worked in psych and am well aware of these things, how it works so I figured it out. Unlike you, I am very much in love with him. My only issue at this point is why did he not tell me when he seen where we were going? You are a caring person, his mother was a comfort /safe zone for him and now she is gone. You recognize that. Your feelings are normal, and I commend you for still caring after being abused.