which brings me to my current thoughts:

I was doing so well lately not thinking about him, then this had to come up, and now I am angry and upset all over again. I want to let this go.... again.

The only thing that helps is knowing I am in a far healthier and happier relationship now.

Why should I have that much compassion for someone who abused me, for someone who is total SCUM, and for someone who screwed me over royally????? It doesn't make sense. I don't think I feel as much compassion as I did initially.