I'll see T today. I talked to my wife this morning, trying to explain why things are so hard for me right now. She's trying, but admitted she didn't understand why I am so upset, The last time I felt like this, my ex-P (He retired several years ago.) gave me Ativan (Lorazepam), and I think maybe I need this, again. Not to be on all the time, but just when the paralyzing thoughts/anxiety/rumination/depression/overwhelming feelings become too much for me. Stay tuned.