I don't know... we didn't discuss it. He never brings stuff like that up, it has to be me that asks.

I think he probably wouldn't mind if I emailed him and (if he saw it) would reply... but if I did that the ashamed part of me would kick up such a fuss about how terrible I am for interrupting his holiday that I'd end up feeling **** and it probably wouldn't be worth it...

I don't know how I didn't realise before that he's away at probably the worst possible time. I could have at least talked with him a bit about it all if I'd remembered...