Saw my T, poured my heart out to her. I was shaking like a leaf. She feels--and I agree--that my anxiety level is so high right now, I can't focus enough to take the first steps towards even asking about retirement, not to mention dealing with the financial issues (which bring more anxiety). I asked her if she thought Ativan was a good idea, and she said yes. So after I saw her, I went down the hall to my Pdoc's office, to find out if he could see me. He invited me into his office, heard me out, and sent a script to my pharmacy. He told me not to go back to work today. So I'm home now, waiting for the meds to work. When I'm calmer, I'll be able to focus better, to ask the right questions, and make some decisions.