It was my granny that told me why a 5 year old me had a You have been framed worthy moment. My father was teasing me, thinking it was amusing. In the aftermath of a wedding and someone caught it all on camera. Lucky me.
My Gran and Grandad didn't like my father. If he hadn't been in the army I doubt he would have got their blessing. Even then they reluctantly agreed. He looked happy in the wedding photos to my mum though. And I can only remember him when he got back in touch, out of the blue it felt like to me. I didn't go the first few times, I ran back inside in tears.
And my mum shouted at him like a maniac when he came to the door. So I had to look out for his car every second Saturday. Soon enough my parents were still in bed with hangovers and I was the only one up on a Saturday morning.
The only time my father got angry with me was when I did French. And we had German family. I had only seen photos of them. I didn't mind seeing my father because he never once raised his voice. And at home, it couldn't have been more different. I was afraid to sneeze too loud at home. And I honestly felt like my mums hate for my father was unintentionally pased on to me. She would look at the obituaries hoping he had passed away my mum would say.