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In regard to the upcoming work issue: I think I am so worried about this because of how I feel about myself. I feel like I would have done it differently if I could, if I had thought about who I am. I feel like this person is kind and caring and I wish I had said something to the effect of "this isn't a good idea" or something. I should have talked to her first. That would have been the most compassionate thing to do. That would have shown who I really am. Instead, I think and feel like I did the wrong thing. I think that at the time I honored the part of me that is moral, but the compassionate me is greater. I am afraid of how the reactions will be. But I am unable to forgive myself for doing something that could have had such major repercussions. I'm having trouble living with myself.