A month ago, I (a 14 year old) saw probably the most vile, disgusting movie ever made. I’m not going to say what the movie is because I don’t want anyone else to watch it. Many ADULTS apparently couldn’t sit through the movie, and yet I, a 14 year old, watched it. I haven’t watched all of it, just enough to know I’ll never watch it again.
Anyway, after watching it and being disgusted, I kind of forgot about it. Until about a day ago, when I remembered it again.
After that, I went into anxiety mode. I was anxious for the rest of the day, I felt very gloomy, I lost my appetite, I felt tired (could this be part of the reason why I feel anxious?) but I couldn’t fall asleep, etc.
I felt like I was feeling way too anxious over just a movie. Could there be another reason I was this anxious?
Part of th reason I felt anxious about the movie seemed to be because I enjoyed some parts of the movie. My paraphilia(s) made me enjoy some aspects of the movies. Does anyone have experience with paraphilias here?
I feel like I’m sensing a pattern here. I get anxious over something. I eventually forget about it. About a month later, I get anxious over something else. Them I forget about it, etc.
Does anyone here have any advice on how to deap with any of this? Almost anything would be helpful