T, this is ridiculous. I'm counting down the days and hours till next session (4 days and a bit)... and yet I'm terribly scared.

We already talked about this. Tons. In fact, you offered a 2nd session, so that the "real" contact would help me to hold on to the connection (which is there, I know). But I cannot take you up on this offer. Even though I appreciate it and I have to agree, that seeing you twice per week might be helpful.

So I guess, next week we will spend another session on the question why session #2 is out of question for me. Why I cannot even bring myself to call you when I'm really struggeling, even though you kind of implored me last session to give you a call when things are getting rough and that you'd call back asap. I don't know why those things are so immensely difficult all of a sudden. With former Ts I just called, and it was ok. We talked. We considered an extra session, if necessary, or discussed strategies for calming down. So why can't I call you? What am I waiting for? What am I scared of?