First session back after your long holiday. I felt like I was going to suffocate in the hour before, the anticipation was too much. My hands were sweating. In a way, I wanted to fast forward through the session so that, like a little hungry animal, I could snatch the memory of it and savour it in the safety of my room, away from prying eyes.

I could have melted into you. My words didn't come out right. I had to remind myself to breathe. Your gaze was a little too intense at times, it had me squirming. It was like my body was doing something that my mind hadn't condoned, I could have started shaking. I don't understand why I had such a strong physical reaction to your return--to you. But you grinned at me as if you were greeting a friend and everything was right again.

Did you notice? '