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Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2
Sorry to say that your life experience kinda sounds like mine....drifting, bouncing off the walls directionless with a goal in mind (mine?) and going off on tangents.
As far as initial trauma as a baby- that’s something that I feel like I will never know being too young to remember even if I could. It just has to be a traumatic event to a child’s mind to initiate the prevention of integration...repetitive? Idk. I was raised with very abusive parents and that there pretty much cinches it for me.
But then again....was I born this way???
Self-hypnosis I did try...I’d always fall asleep, lol.
Or the Others would just go blah blah blah.
I’d just not stress over it and let it flow instead of pushing it. I’ve heard that your mind might give it up when it’s ready to.  |
Thanks. That's food for thought. I wish I could understand more. My parents divorced when I was five. I've only heard different versions of the past, and it's never the same. My dad is dead. I didn't like being around him when he was alive, but I can't think of a specific reason for this. My mom is in her own world and paints her own pictures of things and can't see anything else.
Two of my siblings have received (and rejected) diagnoses of schizophrenia, and I struggle to follow their threads of thought sometimes. My two other siblings just shut down on talking about the past. They either don't remember anything or want to move on. It feels like I'm talking to robots. The past is a slippery thing. I guess the present is as well.