I woke up this morning just feeling so hopeless I cried. I typed "I want to die" into youtube. The advice is just the same: Reach out. Talk to someone BUT I did reach out to you. I get that you need your holiday time, but those feelings didn't just go away because you did.

It's the fact that you didn't reply back to my pathetic email where I told you that I SH'ed and I didn't want to see you. No cake or cards for me because I did it. I got what I wanted I think I should have got it stitched. Heck I learnt how to do them myself this year.

I watched a few episodes of In treatment season 1. I am Laura and I am Sophie and I am angry like Alex. You've become the center of my life and you don't even realize it.