You're not worthless, I do care about you, even though I don't know you but no one should struggle alone, please keep us updated and feel free to vent whenever you need.
We here can't help you much practically, but we can listen. You see how many people responded to you now. And no, I didn't feel manipulated at all. I felt that you're genuinely suffering and I didn't know you posted here so I went to check your post. It was because I cared. I can't offer any advice, I just genuinely wanted to let you know that someone has read your post and feels for you.