It is not just one mistake or accident, it was a life time behavior. My mother was bad influence that she bad mouthed my father and put the hate towards him ever since we were children. I have a post called "Has she lost her mental capacity? Urgent advice needed. Thanks" in Health & Other Support - Partners of People and Caregivers Support section, there are other factors not included in the post which takes a life time to write. I hope that can give you an idea of what I mean. The issue is that I never got along with my dad and he was always fair and provided the important things in life for me to become a professional with good qualification and never ever had a problem with the law. It may seem not that important to who reads this but my dad did sacrifice his life for his children, he could easily left my mom and us but he did not. After his death, I found out the truth, I can say the hard way, and now I am not able to apologize to him. He is dead. He did not deserve the way the whole family treated him, he deserved a lot lot better. I can not do anything now to fix or amend the wrongs and that is what is keeping me sleepless at night ( I wake up 2 or 3 times a night) and it has really affected me in that I can not concentrate at work, I do stupid mistakes for someone with my qualifications and experience. But now I know what needs to be done, it is not revenge at all, but fighting for my rights and to raise my father 's name and honor. It maybe hard for anyone to know what I mean as I can not write the whole story here. But what I was interested in knowing what my dream meant, I think, as mentioned before, it is my subconscious acting up to make myself feel better. I thought to write it to see if my explanation was correct. Sorry for the long post but I hope it helps to clear up. Thank you for your time and effort.