Astral...Im about to say something that may be hard for you to hear but please hear me out....

my first reaction to your thread (this one here) was a knee jerk one so last night I did not make a reply here.

today I feel i need to ask you a question....

which would you rather have....

someone posting from their heart something that they took the time to think about, that shows they went through what you have and they understand and want to help you.

or

someone posting to you and your other thread out of obligation because they have felt manipulated due to threat of you leaving and dying.

or people not posting to you because you threatened to leave and die.

thats how i felt last night, I felt manipulated. I had taken the time to write a post and think about what I wanted to post to you in your other thread but hadnt posted it yet, because I was still thinking about your very long post.

but then when posts didnt appear on the boards in your thread right away or in a timely manner of your time you posted this thread, threatening to leave and die.

Astral I know you are hurting right now and I know you want replies right away, but you have also been here on psych central for 6 years now.

you know that not receiving replies when you think they should be there, is just part of the normal risk we all take when posting, whether its our own thread or post in someone elses thread.

psych central does not have rule or promise that when we post we will get replies or a certain number of replies. and for immediate or crisis help we are supposed to be contacting our own treatment providers.

whether you decide to leave and die well thats up to you, its no reflection on me or others here whether you choose to leave psych central and commit suicide or never come back.

Im sorry but Im going to have to take more time to think about my post for your other thread. I want my post to you, if I decide to post it, to reflect my thoughts and heart not my feelings of posting out of obligation of your threat to leave and die.

I do care about you and other members here, that is as much as anyone can care about a stranger on the internet, with a user name instead of their real names, that we have never met in person. right.

my suggestion is in the meantime while waiting for people to post from their hearts is that if you need immediate help, immediate replies to contact yours or a mental health treatment provider off the computer, they will be able to help you right away where as on the internet sorry to say you have to be patient and people will reply to you like they have the past 6 years, at their own pace and time.