I don't think they have any crisis service in my country . I don't want a stay in hospital as I've been there before and got bullied by the other patients plus it's very hard to get into hospital here . They will only admit me after an attempt of suicide , and not before unless I beg them which I did before and they told me " this is not a hotel " well I don't want to be treated like that by anybody . They really don't care
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Originally Posted by Wild Coyote
Hi crying,
I am very sorry you are experiencing such a challenging time. 
So glad you are reaching out.
It is just fine to experience all types of feelings. It is wise to be discerning about feelings, realizing it may not be in our best interest to act upon all of our feelings, especially when so depressed. Depression is the great deceiver, lying to us, distorting things, making us feel even worse. It can feel overwhelming for sure.
You sound like you may be in the "danger zone," at serious risk of hurting yourself?
Please continue to reach out, both here and elsewhere.
Do you have a therapist? Have you tried a live crisis line? Have you tried a local "crisis center?" Do you have anyone you can talk with/ spend time with? Do you need hospitalization?
Please do not allow depression to defeat you.
I hope you keep reaching out.
Stay safe.
WC |