You are not alone!
It's very common for victims of abuse to feel as though they cannot talk about what has happened to them.
I am so sorry this has happened to you!

I feel very angry toward this ambulance technician!
I am also very sorry about any other past abuse. It can be so very difficult to endure the triggering of memories of prior abuse.
I hope that, in time, you feel you can trust your therapist enough to share. I think it may be very helpful for you. Of course, talking about it makes it even more real and can be very difficult. Yet, keeping it all in and to yourself may also present some ongoing difficulties.
Thanks for sharing here.
I am saddened for you and am very concerned about you.

WC