I am 37 years old.Have not had a boyfriend in 10 years.Feel like a loser.When it comes to all kinds of relationships.Growing up both parents where abusers.Did not talk to my dad the last 10 years of his life.Mom's Bi-Polar and drugged out on to many Meds given by DR's.Grew up seeing bad examples of relationships.At times i feel totally ugly and worthless.I know some mean and nasty people.Who seem to always be in relationships.The older i get the more lonely i feel.I pretty much go places on the weekends alone.Know a lot of people.But would not call them really friends.Mainly why i don't call folks where i live friends.Is because i do all the work.I remember birthdays and other special dates.I call folks to see how they are doing.Do favors etc Listen to all their problems.Nobody remembers my birthday etc. I'm really fed up with everyone.I have gotten to know ever since i moved here 15 years ago.I have 3 hang outs and would love to meet folks in one of them places.Because those places are.Where i spend time and have fun. 2 concert venue's and MLB stadium.But all i come across is the same jerks.There could be 40 thousand folks at the games and i run into the same people.Every time i attend a game.Same as the concert venue's.I live a really clean life style.I want someone who do's the same.Not a drinker,smoker or druggie.I have had folks tell me to go to church and i might find someone.But to be honest.I have had issues with several people who attend church.I don't like being preached to.I sure don't want to date a crazed religious freak. I'm a bit picky.Some say i am.But there are somethings.In people i don't want to deal with.Meaning liers,cheaters,drunks,rude jerks,Mama's boys etc.I have know 3 adult men.Who liked me.But they all still live with their parents.I'm sorry but i don't want to date guys that are in their 30's and still live with their parents and are dependent. I am very independent and i want to date a guy.Who is on his own.Why do i attract such losers?I just wish i could be friends with a guy for awhile and then it turns into more.But that has not been my luck.