Hi cryingontheinside, so sorry you're struggling. Yes, people can be out of touch all right, awful, and I'm real sorry your family have lacked the love. Very saddening. If you can just stand strong in your conviction that, yes, you've been wronged, and perhaps you need to vent your true feelings to them instead of carrying it all inside?, then it might help to make you feel a little better. You shouldn't have to end your own life because of other peoples shortcomings please ((((hugs!)))). You can do this cryingontheinside. If they're nothing but pain then put more distance between you, as well :-(