I posted a few days ago that I wanted to die , well it's got worse. I'm at my mum's house on my own and I've figured out a way I could possible act on it . It's not simple and straight forward so I don't know if it is doable . Right now I can't act on it because I'm not feeling well and I'm incredibly tired even though I've been sleeping .
I'm feeling I can't go on and that I don't want to . I feel anger too at the whole world. I have no support no hope no love by others or from myself .
I feel more certain than ever that I want to end his hell hole that is my life .
I'm not just wanting to end it because I can't bare how I feel .there are other reasons too. Like some family have been mean to me and doubting that I have mental health because I don't feel safe to show them the true me . Part of me wants to do it to show them - see I really was depressed f u ! And part of me wants them to feel sorry that they treated me bad . Yes I know you will think that is wrong and bad of me but I can't help that is how I'm feeling .