I've tried everything the last two weeks to try and not do anything, stayed off any stimulants, tried all sorts of distraction tactics and although it was damned hard, I was doing it, now though, i've just had the results of some tests and the damage they did to me years ago is now going to be with me forever, the physical pain will be with me everyday. I don't know how to deal with this and try to stop si at the same time, just don't think i have the strength.