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Old Aug 19, 2018, 11:36 AM
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I were sent here by a nice guy from another thread... because I think I have two people in my head. However, I'm not sure I have DID. Because...
By "two people in my head", I don't mean I have a double personality.
I mean I feel like there is a second consciousness trying to share the part of my brain controlling attention (I have ADD). Like I was born with two people in my head, in the same way some are born as Siamese twins. We have some common characteristics, but I'm not actually becoming her at times, if you know what I mean.
I've been talking with her for a long time. She sometimes figures things I haven't realized, can be smarter than me and give me good advice. She's very intuitive and strong-willed (it's natural that she has a better bond with the subconscious than I). We sometimes fight, too. But she feels quite sad and deprived due to me being the one to have the body. I sometimes feel her "invading" the front of my head and then I can't focus on anything (I know what happens, just my ADD fully kicks in).
I'm now writing a comic, and she expresses herself there a lot-so she managed to exist outside of me in a way. She was obsessed with it and I had a hard time focusing on anything else at all (ok, I did enjoy creating it, but I ruined other parts of my life). Now it's finishing, and she's started to relax a bit. We even managed to agree on how to share the focus time once or twice, which is more progress than we've ever done. We're starting to figure how to live together so that we're both happy. I know it sounds crazy. Maybe I am a whole new level of wacko. But she feels quite real and I cannot go around telling people that she exists, obviously, so she's imprisoned for life in a way. I'd appreciate any thoughts, but I mostly wanted to get this out here.
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