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yellow_fleurs · Aug 19, 2018, 12:03 PM

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Originally Posted by cln1812

I'd follow up with the psychiatrist. How long have you not been taking your meds? How long has it been since you lat self-harmed or thought about it? If it hasn't been that long, you could still have some of the meds in your system and it may not be long enough to tell how you are doing off the meds. Just be careful with it.

It's been around 3 weeks since I lowered the lamotrigine from 100 to 50 mg and a little over 2 weeks since I stopped altogether.

Possible trigger:

the last time I self harmed was with punching myself on the arm the first day after I lowered the dose, and not at all since then. I had much worse self harm and suicidal urges than just that while on the lamotrigine, but only ever punched myself. My violent thoughts towards myself are almost completely gone, more of a random passing thought in the back of my mind that I hardly notice and does not seem at all like something rational or that I would act on. I am usually so much worse around my period in terms of my mood, and was especially when I was on lexapro and lamotrigine, and so it seems odd that I practically have no suicidal or self harm issues anymore, and feel relaxed, even a couple days before I start my period.

. So, because of all of that I am very confused and think I was worse on lamotrigine, which I know is uncommon. You're right to suggest I be careful, though. I am scheduled for a follow up the beginning of September with my psychiatrist, so think I'll go to that, it's just that after that I am not sure what will even be a useful course of action. Thanks