I so sorry for your loss. It sounds as if it hit you deeply.

What does your therapist think?

I know for me, when I think I need IP, I do (whether I go or not; there are several times I've thought I should but was held back by things like money, care of my daughter, etc.) The times I have gone IP, even I thought I actually needed IP.

But everyone is different.

I'm glad you will be seeing your pdoc soon. And remember to be honest about not taking the Zyprexa.