I met with an old ex lover last night and wasn't feeling it at all. I even had tears in my eyes when he was trying to kiss me (glad it was dark). He wants to see me again but don't think I am going to. I kept thinking about the other guy. I knew I shouldn't go meet him but I just wanted to see ( haven't seen this one in almost two years) and I was right!
I do need to start dating though! Anything to get my mind off of this guy. But when I get asked to meet someone online I freeze and get scared because I don't want them to know the real me. I hate my life