Thank you all. Another issue with my BPD is black and white thinking. You are my friend or you arent. You are a part of my life or you arent. I dont understand grey areas or being in limbo. I am in therapy and I am trying, but it's a really hard concept to understand for me.

She has left and she is not my friend. I simply can not open myself up to the possibility things will change. I am working on mending this damaged heart, but I still have a long way to go.