I’m sorry. This does hurt. My long term t never retired but I am in a different state so he isn’t licensed to treat me anymore. When I visit family once a year I do go see him but our email contact has dried up. I used to be able to email if I had something urgent I needed help with. I’ve been rebuffed the last few times though.

I have had two t’s since that have worked out it and I never thought that would be possible after t1. But it can be done. I won’t lie it is painful but you will find a way to be ok, even thrive without them.