OK I'm gonna try and type this out in some sort of coherent order, because it's really just a bunch of connected thoughts that make sense to me but probably not anyone else like that.
Anyway to start off I was diagnosed with a few separate issues years ago, just getting that out of the way. And I've been seeing a therapist for many years for many things. Now normally I like having a diagnosis, it's nice to have a name for something, it's nice to be able to find resources for that specifically and it connects to other people with it. But when it comes to the DID (or OSDD I'm not a mental health professional so I can't say one way or the other) I'm really hesitant to get one. My therapist said she could give one but so far none of us in the system have really wanted it. And here's why...
Some kind of problems arise with or without that diagnosis. Most of us talk to the same people so many people are aware of all of us, however none of us explicitly tell everyone everything. It doesn't go over well with everyone. We've had people outright tell us never to contact them because of it. You know some people will reject you because they believe you (I guess they have some warped image of DID?) but then you also get people who reject you because they don't.
This actually happens mostly with people who've been formally diagnosed with it. They hate any sort of "self diagnosis". Which isn't something I'm huge on. And non of us can claim to be experts on the subject, but we all know what we experience and we know we all exist. Yet some of these people refuse to let us anywhere near their little community without something official.
But like said before we've all declined one because we don't want everyone knowing. Having an official diagnosis would mean other people would find out. It would go on important legal documents. We have SSI right now and they would probably find out...which in turn makes it possible for family to find out and just all kinds of stuff. Maybe it's one of those things you worry about that isn't as bad as you think it will be. Dunno. But we, most of all me, are still afraid of it, because you know...some people are well judgmental jerks about it.
Again without one we still run into problems. I have one "friend" who will only talk to me, none of the others. In fact she says I can't talk about them, or anything related to them....she refuses to acknowledge whats going on until we have an official diagnosis.
I think I might have gone a bit off topic, but there it is.
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