This is too long for R to leave you ( his clients). Something you wrote a long time ago, is something with which I agree. If T's chooses to work with trauma etc, then they have to level up to the responsibility, especially in private practice .A lot of thought should be put into leaving for a month, and the consequences and the safety plans put in place. They can't just casually be like peace out and good luck. I have been worrying about you, and I hope you weather this with R, bc I basically like him from all the sum-total of stories. This is too long though!