Idk how I feel rn. I want to sleep but I don't. I have a friend in australia that I've been friends with for like 2 years and she's not doing well. I'm too up from the nuvigil but I feel so sad cause she might not make it. She's currently in the hospital with pneumonia. She's already got breathing problems and is on oxygen 24/7. She also deals with having MRSA and chronic pain and is in a wheelchair. She is the sweetest person. She takes care of her blind roommate and I just feel so bad about what would happen to her roommate if anything would happen to my friend. She also has cats that are adorable. I thought she was doing ok. I feel bad cause I sent her a message to complain about something tonight and my problems seem so insignificant. I know my problems are valid and my therapist would be super mad at me right now but idk i just yeah. How am I even going to know if anything happens to her. I just feel like crying but can't. It's ****ing frustrating. I'm sitting here listening to the korn station on prime music screaming the lyrics pretending to be ok. I missed a message from her and haven't heard back and gotta love OCD cause things always go to worst case scenario.

breathe. things will be ok.