I don't think I can feel the same way about him. This break did nothing but teach me that he won't be there when I really need him. My mind is lost but we carry on. If I'm a "special case" why didn't he take better of me? He offered email contact but didn't really mean it as he was inconsistent with it. It would have been better if he hadn't offered that at all, i wouldn't have sat and waited. but maybe it's just me, like it's always been. I ruin things.