I woke up in the middle of the night feeling very depressed at the thought of going to work this morning.

The pressure there is so intense. So much negativity. I was thrown under the bus last week - quite unfairly. I spoke up about it. I constantly watch my back.

This place is bad for anybody’s mental health. People who thrive on chaos and dysfunction thrive at this place.

I’m waiting to transfer. It could be months. Maybe another year for all I know. I don’t know how to shake this off and not let it get to me. Just when I think I am doing pretty good at handling it, I realize it’s getting me down.

I’m wondering if even with the transfer it will still be tough for me. I’ll still be with the same company and now I have bitter feelings due to the current situation.

I just want to go to work, do my job, come home and not worry. Seems like it shouldn’t be that complicated.