Dear T,
Could I maybe get the object from you today instead of Friday? I have this weird feeling that Friday will be canceled for some reason, then I'd be going into vacation without it. Plus, if we do actually have session, then I won't have to be spending time doing that. I feel like maybe if I promise to put it in my suitcase and not touch it till vacation time? Which seems so ridiculous, typing it out...

Because here's the thing--I didn't have anything over the last 5 days when you were out of town (yeah, I know, it was only 5 days, but the thought of you being out of town made it seem longer, like you were emotionally far away as well as physically). So what did I do? I looked at one of your photos online (a public one, nothing sneaky). Not just looked at it, like gazed at it. Maybe...maybe I even sort of stroked your hair on the screen like I do sometimes if I see a picture of a puppy or kitten. (God that sounds pathetic!) I have a feeling that would weird/creep you out much more than if I held a stone from your office...right? But my point is, the attachment is there, and it's going to find some way to manifest itself. Your not giving me something--or waiting 4 more days to do so--won't make it go away. Maybe I need to say that today...except without the stroking-your-hair-on-a-photo-on-my-computer part.
Love,
LT